Underwear

These last few weeks have been crazy.
Trying to figure out where i fit in the RN world, how to do this job, can i do this job, am i insane?
Trying to figure out why the good die young.  I have come to no logical explanation for this other than some just seem to accomplish so much in their short time that in order for us all to learn from them they must leave us early so we can grow more.- but who knows.
Trying to figure out how to be with someone.  We all know this is utterly foreign to me.  like learning how to be Left handed when i'm a Righty.  But i've learned that like all things, i need to enjoy the ride instead of trying to figure it out.
Trying to learn how to be a good mother.  This, of course, is ongoing education.

I've been blessed with some of the most amazing people to call my friends and family.  So, with recent events i called someone who i knew would give it to me straight, no matter what, and that it would be honest, not just what i needed to hear.  Funny thing about that.. i've decided whats honest is usually what people need hear.- funny how that works.
So, this wise, funny, caring, loving, and wanting nothing but the best out of me person told me- "Look at yourself.  Are you doing what you are expecting of others."  (damn him for being right….)
So after this good talk (and some tunes & pinterest of course), i've come up with some insights on how i can portray the things i expect from others.
Im taking a good look at myself and going to TRY (mind you… i am not perfect, and i'm sure this will take time) and be the person i know i want to be, can be, and expect others to be.

In honor of the month of Thanks i'm going to tell a few people a few things.

Dreytonius- Thank you for making me a better person and reminding me every single day why i love my life.
Roberto- thank you for making me feel beautiful and special every day.
Nana-  Thank you for being there for me no matter what… and sewing for me because i don't know how.  And teaching me what the meaning of 'taking care of someone you love' means.
Papa John- Thank you for teaching me that a sense of humor is a quality.  And teaching me that the measure of a man is where he stands during times of trial, not during comfort and convenience.
Seester-  thank you for reminding me that there are truly GOOD people in this world. that people do care and everyone should be given a chance.
Founder of the Nerd Herd- thank you for always being honest with me, and reminding me that i am human and will make mistakes, and i can move past them.  and also for reminding me why i will only have 1 child (:  
Golden Child- thank you for being solid as a rock.  for showing me how hard work pays off, how dedication makes you strong, and how you can do one million things in 24 hours.
My nieces and nephews- thank you for giving your parents grief and making me so proud.. but more so thank you for being such good kids, cousins, friends and family.  you guys are each so special and i'm so proud of every one of you.
My in-laws- thank you for helping me understand why it is you chose to marry my siblings… wait, i still don't understand… how about…. Thank you for teaching me how to love people like family.
My co-workers- thank you for teaching me patience with myself.  that i cannot do it all when i want.  thank you for believing in me and supporting me through school and everything else in my life- i could not ask for better people to surround myself with.Daniel Dean-  Thank you for showing so many people what it is like to truly accept people for what they are, and loving them no matter what.  For showing your children what it feels like to have your world revolve around them.
Brad-  Thank you for helping me realize you can be an inspiration to anyone, and you never know who that is, so try to inspire every person you meet.
My cousins, aunts and uncles- thank you for giving me some of the best memories i have in this life.
My grandparents-  thank you for teaching me what unconditional love is- quilting, yankees, and never missing a grandchild's 'special occassion' whatever it may be.
And for everyone mentioned, and not mentioned- thank you for being like underwear….
Some crawl up your butt..
Some snap under pressure…
Some don't have the strength to hold you up…
Some get a little twisted…
Some are your favorite…
Some are cheap…
And some actually do cover your butt when you need them.


love you all.  i'll leave you with this:

jami