i misunderstood this at first... thinking he wanted a reward for being good at wrestling... but after being reinformed i realized my babe was being honest with good ol' saint nick about giving a kid a bloody nose during one of his wrestling matches, and he wasn't sure if it would count as being bad or not, so he wondered if he'd still get anything for christmas....

how cute is that??

love this kid.

merry christmas friends.

Merry Christmas Friends

Because i'm late, lazy and cheap, i didn't mail out as many cards as i wanted to. so i'm posting them for you all to see.

But really, i hope you all have wonderful & happy holidays this year. i'm sure any of you who read this are more important to me than you realize. i am terrible at showing, but i'm working on it, just how much i appreciate all that i have.

i have an awesome kid that i love tons and work my tail off for. drey keeps me going. that boy is my life, don't know what i'd be doing with out that handsome little bugger.

My amazing family, i love them all so much. they do more for me than they can imagine and i'm so grateful for everyone of them. (Especially my two naughty 2 year olds that give their mom and dad grief... he he he). my friends are the best. my co-workers are pretty much my life savers. my school friends have become like my second family to me with all the time we spend together. i could go on for days about each person that pops into my head, but we all know how pressed for time i am ;)

anyways.. i don't want to get to sappy on you all, because that would give everyone the impression i myself, am sappy. love you all.

merry christmas!!

jami & drey

whats important

i just love to hate this time of year.

nothing like happiness, joy, and bliss surrounding you to remind you how ungrateful you are.

i have been tested as a parent recently... this is nothing new, but its taken on a whole new level for me since Thanksgiving.

i can't even imagine how many times i fought with my parents thinking, ok KNOWING, that i was always right... but i can remember, and VERY specifically the few times i heard these words come from John or Jana;

"i'm so disappointed in you."

and it hurts. it hurt bad to know you've caused that.

Enter my 7 year old.

Drey is a great kid. i love him more than i can even describe. but recently, he has acquired traits that i am not fond of. he's done things that he shouldn't, and hurt some other people.

the way that makes you feel as a mother and person is indescribable.

knowing someone you have taught better and raised, has hurt someone else hurts me more than i can express.

its a hard lesson, very hard, for a 7 year old to wrap his head around, but hopefully we can learn it together.

its the time of year John got really bad, and left us missing him. its hard to remember how amazing my dad was before he was sick, but he was. seriously... he was THE BEST.

so i'm going to try hard to remember how lucky i am to have such an awesome boy, greatest family and friends and co-workers, my health, and the opportunity to go to school to learn how to help others.

so luckily... its a break for me until January. I will not even look at a nursing book, or online quiz until Jan 10th and focus on whats important.

my babe.