perspective

i suck at blogging... but i totally blame nursing school...

and i also have no pictures.... but i totally blame nursing school...

So... to catch up on my 'super exciting, jealous of me totally' life...

Dreyton is getting ready to graduate from 2nd grade, tomorrow. that kind of freaks me out a little bit... no way i have a 3rd grader... no way... i'm only 24... crazy....

i'm in my last semester of nursing school... i'll be done the beginning of August, about 10 weeks, or 71 days, or 1709 hours... but who's counting.

this semester is by far the craziest as far as scheduling goes. i'm literally gone doing something school related or work related all but 4 days a month. i'm terrified i'm going to be depressed when i'm done with school... i won't know what to do with myself. everyone keeps mentioning i can start taking pictures again..... we'll have to see on that one.

a lot of things, experiences that have been occurring with me lately have me thinking though... about just how lucky i am. i have some pretty amazing family & friends that do some really incredible things. they always help remind me how supported i am, how lucky i am, and how ungrateful i can be. and with this semester... i've learned just how lucky i am to have my health. (however poor it may be- physically and mentally)..

we all know i hate exercise... and we all know i am semi-crazy... but i've seen just how bad a persons health and mind can get. i've seen how bad drugs can destroy someones entire life- including their kids' and families... it is so heartbreaking to watch. i've been 'fortunate' enough to go to some AA(alcoholics anonymous) and NA(narcotics anonymous) meetings FOR SCHOOL (my little facebook post landed me several messages of encouragement and support... and i can't thank you all enough to know if i really was in that situation i'd have all you backing me up). the last one i participated in sent me home in tears... it was insane. i've been close to people who have experienced this but being there hearing the stories of these people and their families just gets the perspective in your head, makes it real. i mean you hear about this all the time, but you never experience it... well at least I haven't. and i hope and pray i never do... i don't think i'm a strong enough person to endure that sort of thing... not even maybe.

so my rant... i guess its just may way to help me remember? maybe pass this info on to all my blogging friends? not sure...

i really don't like when people say, "someone else always has it worse." i don't think you should down play your situation at all... what i've learned over these few weeks is its not what your problems are, its how you react to them that is the difference. but thats just my opinion... and i'm pretty sure i'm going to work a little bit more on my reactions than my actual problems... thats the difference between me as a nursing student this semester... and the patients i care for... and its a damn fine line....

some lyrics from a new favorite song:

'When you're happy like a fool... let it take you over.

When everything is out... you gotta take it in'